Anonymous Asked:
would you say that purging gets easier the more you do it or harder? Physically, it becomes easier. Sadly, almost natural or normal.
Psychologically/emotionally, it screws you up more and more every time you do it.
If you haven’t started, I beg you to not even try it because I would hate for you to get caught in the hell that this disorder brings with it. Trust me, I wish more than anything I could stop right now.
did i really just purge twice in one day….
I think ive officially lost it…
So I guess I’ll just sit here and cry.
I don’t know who I am anymore…
That terrible feeling when you think that the only way anyone will ever love you is if you’re drunk or they’re raping you…
I just want to be with you so badly right now…
Running into to the woman who was your Sunday School teacher for over 6 years, who also happens to be the daughter of the man who raped you for over 2 years when you were only 7 years old…
Depressing… brings back every memory I’m trying so desperately to forget… :/
morrison-hotel Asked:
I hope you feel better. Life is beautiful..you just need to open your eyes and see it..I know I don't know you..but I saw your post when I searched under "depressed"..I'm here if you ever need to talk. Thanks so much. I’m working on getting better everyday!! :) ♥
Anonymous Asked:
awww i really wish i could give you a big hug right now! you are beautiful and special, dont forget that <3 awww, I am accepting your hug in my mind!! lol
Thanks anon :) ♥
You know that feeling after a purge?
That light-headed feeling, it’s like a high. After weeks without purging, I relapsed. It’s the only time I feel like I’m doing anything right anymore…. How sad is that?! How sad is it that I feel Iike a complete failure unless I’m purging.
And recently, I’ve been wanting to cut… What the hell is wrong with me. I never used to cut. EVER!! And now it seems that I want to cut every night..
When did I become so screwed up? When did I become so pathetic? I don’t know what to do :’(
Until a few months ago, I always told myself I would never be that girl who uses alcohol and drugs to deal with life… Now I’m the girl who just wants to spend her life wasted and numb to the world. Pathetic much?
Have you ever gone through your friends list on FB trying to find someone to talk to when you are in tears, but found no one…
Nicest thing I’ve ever heard!!
Thanks so much, you are too :) ♥
After 15 years I finally realize how much I despise you… You ruined my life. You turned me into this broken girl who doesn’t even know how to be happy anymore. I’ll never forgive you for that. You deserve to burn in hell.
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